Please, Don’t Make Me Suffer.

I gave every last bit of myself.

You found being my father an inconvenience. I heard you say that if you’d known about condoms, I wouldn’t have been born.

Neglect and apathy may have contributed to the circumstances in which I was assaulted, molested and abused by my parent’s acquaintances, relatives, and friends. There were times that I was denied food, clothes, and education as punishment for breaking arbitrary rules.

I sacrificed myself believing it was the only way to win approval and to be loved. Still, I lost.

In losing I discovered I won. I won freedom from judgements and unattainable expectations. Freedom has granted me the space to fall in love with myself.

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